THE DARKEST RECKONING

The darkest places in hell are reserved for those who maintain their neutrality in times of moral crisis.

- Inferno, Dan Brown

NOW IT STRUCK ME! I HAVE BEEN HERE ALL ALONG IN THE FOUR CORNERS OF THIS ROOM WATCHING THE WORLD PASSED BY, TIMES RUNNING, LEADERS CHANGE.

I NOTICED MYSELF STRESSED OUT TO THE POINT OF SHIFTING FROM A VANTAGE POINT OF VIEW, TO A WAY MORE LIBERAL MIND. THE GRAY MATTER DIFFERS NOW, FOR IT IS BECOMING STRONGER, BOLDER IN HUES, COLOR, TASTE AND TEXTURE.

GOD KNOWS HIS WILL. PEOPLE DO. SOMETIMES. GIVEN A CHANGE TO LET LAW OF THE LAND PREVAIL. YES! MAN IS JUST SO GOOD AT IT. BUT, WHEN POKED WITH SOCIO-CIVIC DISPUTES, EVIDENTLY SHOWN IN AN ENORMOUSLY DISTRESSING SITUATION, HE IS STILL NO GOOD AT ALL. HE REMAINS NUMB AND GOOD-KNOWING ONLY TO HIS ADVANTAGE. BUT, DOES HE HAVE THE HEART TO TOUCH EVEN THE HANDS OF THE LOWLY ONES? NO. HE DOESN’T EVEN SHOW UP TO FACE THE CRY OF THE OPPRESSED. HE LOCKED HIMSELF IN THE ROOM. REMAINED SILENT AND SAFE. OH, WHAT A PITY!

FOR TO LIVE, IS TO SERVE. FOR WE ALL GIVE, TO DESERVE. FOR WE HAVE LIFE, TO GLORIFY. TO PROSPER IS TO HELP. HUMANITY IS SERVED IN OUR BEING – REACHING OUT WITH OTHERS AND MAKING A DIFFERENCE. NOT SITTING BACK. NOT MAKING DISCOURSE FOR SOME PALTRY EXCUSES. WALKING TALL YET NO HEART AT ALL. 

Heart for Memories

IN MY FIVE YEARS OF SITTING HERE IN THIS TABLE, WORKING (MORE OF KEYS RAMMING) FOR THE COMMISSION (I ONCE THOUGHT I’D RATHER LEAVE, BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT NO ONE CAN EVER BE AS GOOD AS THEY ARE EXPECTED TO BE, INCLUDING MYSELF) I GET TO WIN SOME REAL CONSOLATION FOR MYSELF, TOUCHING INSPIRATIONAL STORIES AND INSIGHTS AS BASED ON BIBLICAL PRINCIPLES, THE MUSIC THAT REMINDS OF THE GLORIOUS DAYS IN THE PAST, AND THE MOVIES THAT MOVED ME INTERNALLY THRU ETERNITY.

IT’S NOT JUST ONCE IN A WHILE, BUT I RECKONED IT’S A MUST IN EVERY WHILE. HAVING A GREAT TIME ALL BY YOUR SELF AND TAKING IT ALL IN – I MEAN, THE WORLD, LIFE SO FAR, ALL THE MEMORIES…IT’S CONSOLING, IN A WAY THAT YOU FEEL LIKE, ANYHOW, YOU ALWAYS LOVE LOOKING BACK THRU THAT JOURNEY OF THE PAST SPECIALLY, WHEN THERE ARE SOME WHO REALLY ARE WORTH THE TIME.

SOMETIMES, WE ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD TO GET A PLACE, A CUP OF COFFEE IN ORDER TO SETTLE OURSELVES TO FEEL GOOD THINGS, THINK GOOD MEMORIES, TALK ENDLESS CONVERSATIONS… WE DON’T REALIZE, THERE ARE THINGS THAT ARE IMPLANTED IN OUR HEARTS, THAT EVEN WHERE WE ARE, EVEN IN EVERY BIZARRE SITUATION, WE CAN HOLD ON TO THEM AND REALIZE – IT WAS QUITE A GREAT TIME, A GREAT WHILE… ESPECIALLY WHEN EVERYTHING FROM THERE SEEMS TO LAST A LIFETIME.

ON THE OTHER HAND, THERE IS also FAR WAAAY more important THINGS TO THINK ABOUT, TO CARE FOR AND TO PRAY FOR. JUST WHEN WE THOUGHT we would only love the moments of spending longer time to think about that something from the past, with whosoever that EMOTIONALLY affected us, PICKING ONLY good memories with them, IT’S LIKE something classical, funny, witty… IT’S WORTH KEEPING.

but looking at where we are today matters most. Because we can make use of OUR GOOD BECOMING AND GREAT LEARNINGS AND WISDOM TO SEVERAL SITUATIONS THAT NEEDS MUST OF OUR AFFECTION AND PRECIOUS time to make up great memories.

I say that’s part of our true humanity. And when that works in us, then I would dismiss my latest rebellious rant of saying “humanity is dying.”

Lately, I feel being bombarded with petty miseries of some sort, as others might think. But I know to me, it really matter a lot… and that I know some might simply understand because they somehow had a share of such resentments, and of course some would also judge me for reacting that way. You see, it’s a big BAD ASS world for me right here. Since I am trying my best to live with THE ideals OF FULL WOMANHOOD, ICONIC, SOPHISTICATED, - being a TRUE Christian, a GOOD mother, achieve MY dreams – graduate degrees, higher salary, AND all those stuff; AT THE SAME TIME, BEING SQUEEZED TO FIT IN WITH SACRED REALITY.

It’s hard may be because, I’m trying to set and reach for that ideals for my own gratification. WELL, GIVING CREDIT TO WHAT OTHERS WOULD SAY, AND IS ACTUALLY A Universal AND HOLY truth – ONLY GOD CAN PLEASE US, OR WE SHOULD ONLY PLEASE GOD. And there’s the rub! Well, that’s being human, again, as I SAY.

SIGH. WELL, GOD IS JUST SO GOOD TO ME. FOR MAKING ME LIKE THIS. OF COURSE WE ARE DIFFERENT FROM EACH OTHER. NO TWO OR THREE INDIVIDUALS ARE ALIKE. AND YEAH, I LOVE BEING MYSELF – MYSTERIOUS, DEEP, AND DIMENSIONAL. SOMEONE HAS TO DELVE INTO MY PSCYHO TO FEEL ME. BUT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHO I REALLY AM. AND FOR THOSE WHO HAVE A HEART FOR MEMORIES – THEN PERHAPS, THEY CAN RELATE WITH ME.

No Need to Overdo What Only God Can Do

The Mathematics of Malthus is described in his work entitled:

“An Essay on the Principle of Population:”

The power of population is so superior to the power in the earth to produce subsistence for man, that premature death must in some shape or other visit the human race. The vices of mankind are active and able ministers of depopulation. They are the precursors in the great army of destruction; and often finish the dreadful work themselves. But should they fail in this war of extermination, sickly seasons, epidemics, pestilence, and plague, advance in terrific array, and sweep off their thousands and ten thousands. Should success be still incomplete, gigantic inevitable famine stalks in the rear, and with one mighty blow levels the population with the food of the world.

Our life is part of God’s masterpiece, to fill the universe he created, to share His glory and to have a taste of power and freedom he bestowed upon us. Man should not put to oblivion that stark reality. He is expected to leverage life in celebrating it, making memories, serving humanity and taking part on goodwill.

However, ever driven with much tenacity and acumen to fathom the truth behind the lines, man searches far deeper into the unknown and the impossible only as to his own limit of imagination. He walks the path beyond searching the pigment of the truth, or so he thinks. This is where defiance begins.

The journey of achieving the said “enlightenment” somehow caused him to stray into the wilderness of sins, challenging the truths about God as taught in every kind of faith, religion; as prophesied by sages, philosophers and great teachers.
For every magnitude of chaos, he finds his own solution. And as part of an aging life, the world and its people is also in the verge of looming crisis.

Overpopulation is the cancer of the world today, and it is inevitable. Man strives to balance the use of world natural resources, learn the hard way of dealing of things that can be out of control – like poverty, crimes, even death. Because life is just an opportunity freely given. It is not there to live forever. Even the stars has its own end and beginning. And all of these truths are revealed under God’s hand who alone is the ultimate source, the beginning and the end of everything – including life!

Life Reckoned!

Last year, 2014 I had a blast! Havin my baby is the most exciting thing I have everyday. You know, having her on your thoughts makes you excited to go home and see her smile. Most importantly during the time, when she first called "Mama"...it was so sweet to my ears. And each day I've lived to face the truth and embrace it - I am now a Mother. Thank you God for this.

It was during the days when "my Mama" was still here. I used to think that maybe this is not for me. But I have been given such a huge blessing, and now it allows me to change everyday. My attitude, my temper, my beliefs, ideals and dreams - they are now coming in full circle of realization that God's love  thru this blessing enables me to see who I am and How He truly loves me.

I used to believe that Life is unfair, or so others think. Apparently, even without the argument, life has its own magnitude. It's in the way you handle it. 

No matter what life gives you, you just have to face it.

As to having this blessing, Life is more than enough to thank God. Because of life, I am alive and I am living that love He gives me.