Hint of Inspiration

I was glad to know that a twin soul of mine - my closest friend, was finally able to read my personal blogs and journeys in my laptop. She actually happened to see the wallpaper on my desktop with written quotes. She said she likes it and that she can relate to it. And she said it with an awe! With that, I am more inspired to write more and finally, or maybe, hopefully, I get the courage to post it here!

Actually, this a sort of personal legacy for me! A memoire. An emotional release. A stress-reliever. Whenever I'm in an emotic mode, I can't stop my fingers pressing the keys. I can't stop the thoughts. Sometimes, they spill yet they find the right word, the right meaning.

My blogs, journals, came out as a part-diary and part-prose project for myself. I haven't been able to master this craft, in the academe, most especially, but at least on my own, I have this little accomplishment.

Fall

I just read about a satellite (NASA's old crap) falling to earth sometime this month or the next... and the killer side of me thought of "him falling on me or on his knees" and I have to laugh out loud!

Damn! I had to say I've been through a lot this year and I couldn't get much justice to all of this freakin thoughts and feelings..(sigh)

I've fallen hard, grounded and now trying to regain back the strength, the courage and it's like the coldness is settling in again. Sometimes, when that fall seems to be too harsh and of greater impact, the more that it gets you going and push you hard to get up and face the second wind in running in on again!

How come I fall for such misery of some sort?

I am starting to fathom life could be a dangerous fall when you let it happen! You could grip into something, actually! And it's within you. It's what God has given to you. Your strong faith and your own values will be your guiding force to face that fear of falling!

Nostagic "Ploning": An Inspiration

Whenever I remember the movie Ploning, I couldn't help but have this nostalgic feeling in me. Ploning  is a story of a town belle in a place of Cuyo in Palawan. She has characteristics that are similar as mine. Her inspirations in life, her experiences and relationships with other characters in the movie, they all summed up like the story of mine.

And aside from that nostalgic feeling I can't stop myself but feel deeply sadden by her loss in the movie. She epitomizes a huge inspiration to me, that is something very real.

Memoirs of U!

my eyes are teary again..

moistly aching..

like pierced from chili spray..

my nose..post-dripping

my voice..hoarse

as if the chords has been

causing it vibrate uneasily

as i spoke into the mouthpiece

my hands were trembling

when i dialled your number

there you go, after the tone...

you're so magical

despite ur absence

i can feel u

in my senses

u soothe my pain

ur like an energy i regain

from the battle...

for all these years

it's like raining hell

of nostalgia

of paranoia

of delirium

of madness

of you

and your

damn love!