IN MY FIVE YEARS OF SITTING HERE IN THIS
TABLE, WORKING (MORE OF KEYS RAMMING) FOR THE COMMISSION (I ONCE THOUGHT I’D
RATHER LEAVE, BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT NO ONE CAN EVER BE AS GOOD AS THEY ARE
EXPECTED TO BE, INCLUDING MYSELF) I GET TO WIN SOME REAL CONSOLATION FOR
MYSELF, TOUCHING INSPIRATIONAL STORIES AND INSIGHTS AS BASED ON BIBLICAL
PRINCIPLES, THE MUSIC THAT REMINDS OF THE GLORIOUS DAYS IN THE PAST, AND THE
MOVIES THAT MOVED ME INTERNALLY THRU ETERNITY.
IT’S NOT JUST ONCE IN A WHILE, BUT I RECKONED
IT’S A MUST IN EVERY WHILE. HAVING A GREAT TIME ALL BY YOUR SELF AND TAKING IT
ALL IN – I MEAN, THE WORLD, LIFE SO FAR, ALL THE MEMORIES…IT’S CONSOLING, IN A
WAY THAT YOU FEEL LIKE, ANYHOW, YOU ALWAYS LOVE LOOKING BACK THRU THAT JOURNEY
OF THE PAST SPECIALLY, WHEN THERE ARE SOME WHO REALLY ARE WORTH THE TIME.
SOMETIMES, WE ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD TO GET A
PLACE, A CUP OF COFFEE IN ORDER TO SETTLE OURSELVES TO FEEL GOOD THINGS, THINK
GOOD MEMORIES, TALK ENDLESS CONVERSATIONS… WE DON’T REALIZE, THERE ARE THINGS
THAT ARE IMPLANTED IN OUR HEARTS, THAT EVEN WHERE WE ARE, EVEN IN EVERY BIZARRE
SITUATION, WE CAN HOLD ON TO THEM AND REALIZE – IT WAS QUITE A GREAT TIME, A
GREAT WHILE… ESPECIALLY WHEN EVERYTHING FROM THERE SEEMS TO LAST A LIFETIME.
ON THE OTHER HAND, THERE IS also FAR WAAAY more important THINGS TO THINK ABOUT, TO CARE FOR AND TO PRAY FOR. JUST WHEN WE
THOUGHT we would only love the moments of spending longer time to think about
that something from the past, with whosoever that EMOTIONALLY affected us,
PICKING ONLY good memories with them, IT’S LIKE something classical, funny,
witty… IT’S WORTH KEEPING.
but looking at where we are today matters
most. Because we can make use of OUR GOOD BECOMING AND GREAT LEARNINGS AND
WISDOM TO SEVERAL SITUATIONS THAT NEEDS MUST OF OUR AFFECTION AND PRECIOUS time
to make up great memories.
I say that’s part of our true humanity. And
when that works in us, then I would dismiss my latest rebellious rant of saying
“humanity is dying.”
Lately, I feel being bombarded with petty
miseries of some sort, as others might think. But I know to me, it really
matter a lot… and that I know some might simply understand because they somehow
had a share of such resentments, and of course some would also judge me for
reacting that way. You see, it’s a big BAD ASS world for me right here. Since I
am trying my best to live with THE ideals OF FULL WOMANHOOD, ICONIC,
SOPHISTICATED, - being a TRUE Christian, a GOOD mother, achieve MY dreams –
graduate degrees, higher salary, AND all those stuff; AT THE SAME TIME, BEING
SQUEEZED TO FIT IN WITH SACRED REALITY.
It’s hard may be because, I’m trying to set
and reach for that ideals for my own gratification. WELL, GIVING CREDIT TO WHAT
OTHERS WOULD SAY, AND IS ACTUALLY A Universal AND HOLY truth – ONLY GOD CAN
PLEASE US, OR WE SHOULD ONLY PLEASE GOD. And there’s the rub! Well, that’s
being human, again, as I SAY.
SIGH. WELL, GOD IS JUST SO GOOD TO ME. FOR
MAKING ME LIKE THIS. OF COURSE WE ARE DIFFERENT FROM EACH OTHER. NO TWO OR
THREE INDIVIDUALS ARE ALIKE. AND YEAH, I LOVE BEING MYSELF – MYSTERIOUS, DEEP,
AND DIMENSIONAL. SOMEONE HAS TO DELVE INTO MY PSCYHO TO FEEL ME. BUT ONLY GOD
KNOWS WHO I REALLY AM. AND FOR THOSE WHO HAVE A HEART FOR MEMORIES – THEN
PERHAPS, THEY CAN RELATE WITH ME.
