Thursday, November 25, 2010

A Short Trip

          Finally, I was able to travel outside Mindanao. It was indeed a travel of many firsts. First time on a ship, a plane and first time to Cebu. I wish I'll have another one. Soon. Anyways, I had fun but at the same time there were moments I felt like sober, unhappy of some sort..I don't know..maybe just because of the feeling of being alone...well, not literally..I was with my uncle during the trip. But I guess the feeling of wanting to be someone special (that matters to me), would be great. I mean with that, you get to share your happiest moments with that someone. (lol) By the way, it way my uncle's first trip too.
          We left Davao on a Sunday morning and arrived Cagayan de Oro city at quarter to seven in the evening. We had dinner and I had that headache that made me freaked out. (it's like the headache is spoiling my moment..) It was not really flattering at all. Somehow, then came the "bad trip" in the trip. It was raining hard when we arrived and we weren't able to get a taxi to the pier right away. I was soo pissed off with the very unorganized traffic schemes in that part in CDO (near the bus terminal and public market), that we walked for almost a kilometer just to get a taxi. Indeed, there was this system loss! Horrible!
          So, we got onboard at around 9pm. Ofcourse, it was my first time to board a ship and I was sooo excited when I climb the ladder. I was greeted by a young gentleman..and i had to say "whew! this is exciting! it's my first time on a ship.." and he smilingly replied, "Enjoy, maam!". I toured at the cabin, and at the upper deck I saw the city lights of Cagayan de Oro City. I was thrilled by the feeling that I finally experience what i saw in the movies...hmm...mybe like Jack of Titanic..(lol) After an hour, impatient for waiting the ship to go, I slept. And so when I wake up, it was already past 4am. I learned from my uncle that the ship left CDO at around past 1am. Glad that I slept and didn't wait..
         When I woke up we were already crossing Cebu Strait and I saw islands in the north, east and west. My uncle asked what island was in the southwest..and I figured its probably Panay or Negros..but I got wrong..I checked the map at the lobby, and learned that its Siquijor and i had a creepy feeling all of the sudden..somehow, those creepy stories about the island are making life on their own..and i thought "maybe that's why as i look at the island when i didnt recognize, its like there's an eerie impression in my mind.." and when i told my uncle, he laughed.
          I went back to sleep again coz I thought Cebu is still another couple of hours to go.
          So when I woke up I saw the island of Mactan to my left and city of Cebu to my right through the windows and I hurriedly ran upstairs to the upper deck to look at the entire welcoming view. And I was greeted with a view of highly urbanized city of former Sugbo. It was fantastic! I saw this bridge that goes along the seaside waters, it was awesome!
          After an hour, we docked and I started my land trip from the pier to SM, where we were fetched by my another uncle, and from there we went to Lapulapu at Mactan Island, via van. And I was fascinated when we cross the Mactan Bridge. It was huge, tall and beautiful. It's like it the most beautiful bridge I've seen so far. As we arrived at Lapulapu, we had a great lunch! And of the rest of day was spent in my uncle's house.
         The next morning my uncles brought me to the airport. Again, I was sooo excited. Getting in the airport, getting my bags checked, getting board pass and all others stuff that I do, are my first time moments..and because of excitement of boarding the plane, I kept of walking to and fro in the waiting area..(lol)
         Finally, when Im aboard the plane, i sat next to the window at the second row to the left. My seatmates were two middle-aged businessmen. and my feeling of excitement and tensions were expressed in my stretching of arms and making my tendons sound..(lol)
         So to sum it all up, I really do have fun! I always cherish those travels to every place, no matter how near or far, especially the first ones.. they're always memorable to me.
         And with my trip to Cebu, though it was short, it was fun. I enjoyed with my uncles, my aunt and my cousin.
         As for my plane trip back to Davao? It was awesome, exciting and I had fun. I had fun with two middle-aged men who were a bit of an inspiration to start a humour...They were laughing when they saw me stretched my arms and make my knuckles and all joints in my hands sound. And I had to say that was the best way to sort out tension...tension of flying for the first time..Well, it wasn't really funny at all. Probably it's just that they saw it for the first time and it was done by a lady like me..Awesome, right?
        Mode during the trip: sober, excited, quite lonely and sad, a bit happy and joyous..mix of madness! but i love to fly again..i love to travel again..even it it means I'LL DO IT ALL ALONE AGAIN!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Slap Shock

Never happy like the way it was...before..
It was all gone with...the wind..

The sight of you - what an abhorrence!
Let it be known, there are countless ways to rationalize that...

Not a deceitful take again..
Never ever an answer to gain...

Let the furious mind take your soul
To eternal damnation and fortress of hatred

Let the tremor kiss your skin endlessly
The sense that could make you tremble and fall to your knees...

You took the price without pleading
Now vanished before it's gonna end!!

The Absent Memory of an Island

A travel to an island brought me shivering
Out in the open sea, it was cold
There in the water, at least, it is warm
It's where I dipped myself
And relax from the feeling of loneliness
that covers me, belongingness that seemed
like a sheath beneath my soul...

A memory of you never escape such reality
Despite distance and cold
I still long to feel you

How painful however,
That this might be the end of it all

Til now, my thoughts of you would never drift away
I actually held my heart and I break a tear,
A sigh of great despair

Where you are is where I want to take you
And bring you in this wild and lovely escapade

As I toured around the island
All along the sandy and rocky beaches
I think of you, being with me
I wish I held your hand
I wish we were swimming
And playing with the waves

I wanted to take a picture of you
You are such a memory
An absent memory...

I still long to see you
and I hope what I've been through
I could share it with you

Someday, I wish we will get away
to that lovely island...

To fill my emptiness
To take away my loneliness
To gain too much sweet memories
To love the loveliness
of you and me and the island

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

They

A man standing by the threshold
shun by the light of mind

Kept as the other - half

Of a weary heart and aloof soul;
He who keeps closed the fortress of his heart,
Have come to know;
A prim and quiet being who bears,
A seemingly hard shell;
Confessed affections that seemed,
Unlikely felt before
That caugh ablaze he solitary heart
Of a touchy and cautiously bold gait,
Then lovers they become
Kept by the promises of love...

Monday, October 11, 2010

Mystique Girl

When those cherubic eyes

shut upon twilight time

when the sunshine gleamed

upon that solemn image of fate

cupped by the gentle, soft-skinned bare hands..

like to the humming of the fairies in the woods

like to the early bird's chirping over the trees


The world had just rejoiced and the welcome

the moment of mystified creation...

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Liquid Dreams



while..floating in the silvery ripples of my liquid dreams...
all i think is you
you are my heartache
the one i long to wash away
by the waves of calming tears
deep into the heart of the ocean
i threw my confessions of love for you
all i really wish is you would know
how much i valued you
but you are gone, abound to one
needless to say but i was pierced
whenever i remember
the bitter-sweet memories we shared
now, i guess it's time another time
another moment to convinced myself
to move on and forget about you
yet i still don't know as to when and how
will i ever forget everything we had
i wish you never came into my life
now, i wish i could swim into that part
the part that puts too much pain
the part where i could gain you back
but this is another liquid dream
silvery and tangling ripples of oblivion
no matter what life must have given you
and to me in the long run, memories of us
are always worth keepin..
i could miss a life just for that and
for you in my heart!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Youngster Bliss

Like a red sun, my cheeks glow like a sunset
As you smile and your eyes dance to the rhythm 'n blues
You caught me unguarded with so much joy
I was like hanging there..for a while..
banging with the music as you smile...
what a feeling!
Twas when the bench felt comfy, the air chilly...
and you're so near to me;
I played your fave music in the playlist of my heart
It felt such rekindling bliss - a great symphony;
Like a blossoming flower, you inspired me secretly
and that I know i am taking you - in my memory;
This despair summons my maturity to the extreme
Seemingly I'm becoming a burden of my glory
You're such sweet young love at the rainbow's end
Everyday I owe you sunshine smile and delight
And that strange feeling that ignites
but as the chance gets thin, i made it as i dream
suprisingly, you are a radiance of this new world of mine
you're the beauty and music in that cold, comfy room
if you'd ask me for more of philosophy
then i would mean it - i'll be there for you til eternity
closer now to where you are, it felt like an embrace of an angel
such tenderness of thy seeking voice, thy youthfulness
thy humility and simplicity - thy overall stellar personality
makes me feel so great to be part of you - even just beside you
i wore fragrance for some fashion and grace; for fun and for face
so your eyes may see the light in me, the sruggle from within
take thy manly gait for good, someday i know you'll fall in love
but you know, here i am, standing still..
if you'll need me ill be there
i succumb to such sweet hope of secret joy of you
your presence-nearness..your voice, your smile..
you're such obsession in the deepest recesses of my youthful mind, heart..
you're such a sweet young love, and inspiration for my memory
and i know...this absurdity will come to an end someday...

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

whipcracked

crawling in the dark
in a solitary madness

a blast!
an escapade of a lifetime

taking the road to redemption
seeking faith in a kingdom nowhere

unchained..melancholic..pathetic...
the bootless cry of idle tears

sword in hand..
doomed at last!

IL PRIMO LUGLIO with you...


i wish you're here
to tame my indifference..
to ease my pain and gladden the lonely me
to sway me from my self-subjugation
you gave me stuff - which...mi piace molto!
but now, i wish it's you -
preferisco, here with me...
va bene cosi?
mi dispiace..i know this is crazy
but i wish you know that its's true..
mi puo dire?...if you miss me...
wish that on this day i would be happy
perchenon vieni?
on this day - GLEE! for you and me..
c'e tanto de vedere...
if you come with me..
we'll trip at rough roads...
bathe at the sea..
ride at the waves..
rush into the wind and
ravage with the raging waterfalls
moltissimo...vorrei vedere..
you and me
and a glimpse of eternity..
on this day!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Ode to a Friend


I was lost in the dark, in a moment of silence
I was brazen by the mystery of you
that coy smile, friendly smile
You brought me to uncertainties
You blew off the igniting spark of hope
and you made me see the realities
and now I ain't hopeless...
I still see you - a man I truly appreciate
A friend, a comrade even in distance
I thank you for hanging out with me
amidst the loneliness, the aloofness
in that solitude abyss
even behold the dark skies
frightening lights
we took the rough roads
just to share and discover life
thanks for your music to which i gladly listened
thanks for my stories to which you closely listened
the rubs at my back that made me feel you're there
- this is just another great story of our friendship
mastered in time and goodwill
another good friend like you -
to treasure and cherish...
Somehow the odds are gone
I ain't achin'..ain't hopelessly hopin'
Coz it was just you and me..
- real good good friends, buddy-rangers!
This goes out for you..
an ode, a rhythm of my
recognition of our friendship! Carry on!

Monday, May 31, 2010

holy sigh...

how pathetic this feels..im like...
lost and trying to set myself free..
but i still feel the biggest responsibility -
he who saddens me when mad
he who makes me mad when sad..

i wanna break free from this feeling
may be im not made to feel the fullest of my passion
may be i should just stay where i belong and
have a little taste of small part of what i want
may be someday im gonna have it all..whole!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Damn love!!!



I gazed at you at the dawn of the day...

You wrapped me in thy masculinity...

You awed me when you hugged me and

when you held me so tight, I ignite!

I have heard the tender wind calling

I saw the moon wiped the clouds away

to witness such memoire of you and me!

You got me away from my self!

You left such light in my darkest hours

You fill my emptiness..

broke my fullness!

You took my heart and my life now...

my mind and my soul - as one -

wishing to be with you..to be with you...

You're my damn love!

my too damn love!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

A Day to Live and to Love


when one morning i saw the glittering sun shining in the east

and the grandeur of that towering twin mountains in the west...

i remember love,

love that is best felt with the beauty and glamour of yet simple world...

i remember me - dreaming again...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Quit..not yet...or I'll wait...

You went with glee and joyful smiles..
laughter that tickles the heart..

so young and inspired..

so sweet and desired..

yet you swept me still on guard

to see how do you do with trust

I saw your manners in that afternoon act -

very gentlemanly - so how I really wish you

will treat me like that;

by your very own sweet and gentle ways..
with those whispers and stares..

how I wish someday, we will have

such wonderful time together..